Spam

There is a virus that on occasion shows up on Laurence's email address and sends out a spam message to everyone on his contact list. The only way to stop it is to close the account which I will do after all his bills are paid and accounts closed.

The first email I received I was a little shocked and dismayed. I realized how much I miss not hearing from him.

Now I notice I receive an email and feel like Laurence is sending a mystical message...just to say I'm thinking of you.

P.S. If you would prefer not to receive emails from him, please block his name.
Thanks.

Sundays

Laurence and I loved Sundays. It was our day to sleep in. Laurence would prepare a wonderful breakfast for us. We would listen to jazz and read the Sunday paper. Sometimes we would go for a drive or for a walk in the afternoon, of course, only when it wasn't football season.

Thinking of him on his birthday, missing him on Valentine's Day and remembering our special Sundays together.

It's been a weepy day today.

My Beloved's Birthday

Occasionally on this amazing journey of life, we have the opportunity to meet someone who makes a difference in our experience of the world around us. Someone who listens with compassion, who gives without limits, whose beautiful smile brightens a dreary day and whose contagious laugh chases even the darkest clouds away. We meet someone who reminds us that faith is essential, that God is Love, Love is unconditional and the world is a wonderful place to live.

I am truly blessed because my beloved husband Laurence was this light in my life. His presence continues to bless me each and every day.

The Beach

Today is four months since Laurence passed. It was a very hard day. I was driving home from an appointment wishing it was four years instead of four months. I realized that wouldn't make it any easier. I can't imagine four years without him.

I was very blessed to spend last weekend with my friend Sue at her beach house in Cannon Beach. I was able to leave some of Laurence's ashes in front of beautiful Haystack Rock. The sun was shining and it was an awesome Oregon beach day.

Laurence would have loved it.