Ten Years

Tomorrow is our ten year wedding anniversary. I've had a rough week missing Laurence and the amazing life that we shared together.

Years ago I searched and searched for someone to share my life with. Finally when I prayed and turned it over to God, Laurence showed up at my door.

I am so grateful for answered prayer.

Leiza

I am so grateful for my grief counselor, Leiza. She commented that she wasn't sure that she was being of any help to me.

It is truly a blessing to sit with her as she listens to me babble on about my process, my ups and downs, my fears and joys. We laugh, cry, (well, I cry and she listens) sit amazed at how the world can continue to move on with our loved ones gone.

I am so grateful for her presence and patience, for her caring and her love.

I am so blessed.

Healing

After Laurence passed, I remember being in such overwhelm and wondering what was I supposed to do next. I could very clearly hear Laurence telling me to finish the book.

I realize now what a healing process writing has been for me. In my mind, I see Laurence less as a patient in bed and more as the strong, funny, wise, loving husband that he was. I hear his comments when I am stressing about something to "Get over it." Or when I can't make a decision to "Man up."

I am so grateful for the awareness and healing that shows up everyday. Praise God!

Katie

Katie was Laurence's speech therapist last year. She was amazing with him. She saw his soul and not his physical limitations. She was so instrumental in helping him recover from his stroke.

Anyway, I called the hospital so I could get her mailing address and mail a copy of Anatomy of Caring and ending up talking with her. It was great to hear her voice.

I am so grateful for all the many hospital staff members over the years.

Thank you God.