Sacred Day

I had a very blessed Easter Sunday. Had brunch with wonderful friends this morning and tonight had a joyous evening at the ballet. I felt Laurence's love everywhere I went today.

Today, more than ever, I have an appreciation for the resurrection and the promise of eternal life. I know my beloved is basking in divine love and enjoying the freedom from earthly restrictions. I know I will see him again.

I am grateful God is so gracious.

Six Months

April 1st was six month anniversary since Laurence passed. I think I expected something different to happen or a new revelation. I guess the revelation is that I still miss him terribly. Sometimes I have this feeling of shock when I realize that he's not here, and that he's not coming home.

I've learned volumes about myself. Mostly that I'm stronger than I ever thought I was. I'm learning to have patience with my forgetfulness, sadness, lack of motivation.

I'm learning to love myself. It seemed easier when Laurence was around to love me and encourage me.

I'm grateful for wisdom and understanding. And faith.